Love Is Painful
It is time for you to understand why love in painful. No more lies, only truth.
My perspective of love is unlike many others. I'm not saying that how I see love is the best way to see it. I just hope that by seeing what I see, you learn to be a better person. Let's begin.
Throughout my whole life, I treated people like how I want to be treated: equals. I treat girls like boys, I treat boys like girls, I treat elders like teenagers, and vice versa. I thought I will hold onto this principle till my dying day. I mean, even my sisters (Yes, I have 2.) and several friends have stated that they are sorry for my future wife. What surprised me this year is that I probably have found it.
I know what crushes are, I had one before. With who, you might ask? Well, time to tell the truth. There is an ex-classmate who sat behind me. One thing was for sure: she was cute. And she was friendly, and she was bubbly and never showed any bad sides of herself. We shared great moments together with Breakfast Man. That little girl has now grown from what I perceive as a wonderful child into a mature women of all sorts. I don't think I need to elaborate any further, you know who I'm talking about. I have already told her about the crush. She said I had good taste, and for once, I thought I got something right. But honestly, it wasn't love. I could feel it. It was just a great feeling of attachment, a crush.
But there was this girl I met. I didn't know that I was actually having that feeling. The silence.
I treated her unlike other girls I treated, and that changed the way I treated other girls. She probably might not have noticed it, but is that even important? I sometimes think that we can never be together, there were just too many complications.
But let me tell you something. People say you need 2 to tango. They are wrong. All wrong. You might need 2 to tango, but you only need 1 to love the dance itself.
If to love someone is to be happy when she is happy, to be happy when she smiles, then I think I am in love.
If to love someone is to feel pain when you know you can't have her, to feel sorrow when you know you shouldn't have her, to feel misery when you know you are lying to yourself, then I think I am deeply in love.
Remember, if you get loved in return, love her back more in return. Heck, love her back more no matter what happens. Because that's what love is: a gift from the heavens.
There is a time when I can confess everything, but now is not the time. The time is nigh.
Love love.
posted by chaiminhuei @ 8:05 PM
4 Comments:
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-satisfaction, accomplishment, fulfillment, peace, serene- & -understanding-
Whats running through the mind of my dear little kiddo.
Hey kid, life don't give you peeled oranges and feed it into your mouth. If it is what it takes, take the risk.
No point sitting down under the tree and wonder why the apple drops while it just doesn't float.
If life it is what you perceive thinking that she might see the light and come, well, heck one thing i know, girls are a real pain in the ass sometimes but the fact that 3% of what you say, never goes into their ears, but what you do to them and how you treat them 97% body language are processed in their minds.
If time is not right, then that possibly i could understand, but heck, when do you know is the right time ? You are not even the creator of time.... Exactly, if she is what you think makes you smile when you wake up from your bed in the morning, and she puts you to bed in the night, and who knows, make you feel wild being with her, then by all means, not to confess to her, but do some really sweet stuff. Be a man. Now that you seriously have to.
Erm, one thing for sure, girls are just not attracted to what your physical looks, but how you make them happy. Love is not painful, pleasure and pain, it gives the kick in your ass, and there you go with the drive.
To conclude, don't assume she doesn't like you until you get a direct answer from her. And even if you fail, you got whole bunch of friends with you to un-emo, and trust me, i will bring a sledge hammer myself which will do a very dutiful job. Btw, is just experience. And if you don't get it, she might not deserve you, maybe yours is just somewhere around the corner which you might not have noticed. Well, face your fears !
Lastly, as long as she is happy, you are right? Because that is what true love is......
And of course, if you can't get her, i shall chip in poh sim to your slot. (hehe, jkjk)
Cheers
Who said I was afraid of rejection? I was fearful of hurting others.
He will tell, sure he would, maybe? but is up to him. sometimes, its really up to the person. he could tell, he could not. well,all up to u Chai Min Huei!
Selfishness, the essence of survival.
And pls, I would boldly tell you CMH, we wont be together, least no now. or years times. cos theres always another person at the back of my mind.
but again, call me a Dreamer... you can always try. Hope. There's no Sin in this word.
:)
smile...
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