Brought Back to Reality

Quote of the day: The disturbing fact is that the vast majority of people, including educated and otherwise sophisticated people, find the idea of change so threatening that they attempt to deny its existence.

I skipped college today.

When I woke up, I had that feeling. The 'not today' feeling. I don't get this feeling all the time and it comes at me as a surprise.

Not only that, I had also lived in denial for at least half the day. I spent the entire day resting, thinking that I was on the brink of exhaustion. I also binged, a lot. I practically ate an undeveloped country's average meal for a single individual in a week. 2 weeks. And that is a lot. I feel fat already. After that, I slept. I slept a long uninterrupted sleep. And when I woke up, I felt guilty.

I leanrt something interesting today. Guilt when combined with controlled denial brings you back to reality.

I felt real.

Maybe it was worth skipping after all.

No matter what, I have to apologize to everyone who I had stood up to today. I am truly sorry. Because I let them worry for nothing. Because I am such a selfish bum.

BAH.